Visit the park. Enjoy what nature has to offer.

That is what my fortune cookie said tonight at dinner. Failing to see where the fortune is.

Adam and I have been playing some serious Super Mario Bros.





I can't wait to get off work tomorrow and have 2 days off. Work has been super annoying this week. I'm ready to get a little tipsy on New Years and start 2010 off right.

Oh, and don't worry that I was in the worst mood ever the day before yesterday and my dad tried to cheer me up by challenging me to a game of cribbage. SO, to add insult to injury... I miss double skunking in by 1 point. 1 fucking point. Oh well, I still kicked the shit out of him in that game. Then we argued about the choices and goals I'm working toward and how he and my mom don't think I'm ready to do the things I want to do (i.e. move back to Reno to be with Ben, work and go to school, etc.). I thought that was very special.





18 hours to total freedom for 2 days. Gonna go get pho with my brother and Chantal tomorrow night. That should be fun! My family is going to a local hockey game tonight, but the game doesn't start until midnight and I am too tired to go. If I didn't have to work tomorrow I would be all about it, but I really can't miss or be late for work tomorrow. Kind of an important day for my boss. They definitely wouldn't appreciate me not being there. Looking forward to next days off after the New Year because I want to get my hair cut.

We celebrated out Christmas last night. It was nice. I got an Amazon Kindle. YAY!






Anyway, time to shower and read my Kindle until I fall asleep. :-)

I dont believe good things come to those who wait, I believe that good things come to those who want something so bad they can't wait.

5 o'clock needs to come sooner. Although, it seems that when I bitch about the day being boring and slow I seem to get ridiculously busy. Some guy paid with money order, but didn't bother to read it, so he signed in the wrong spot. All I can think of is how lazy that is. Take 30 freaking seconds and read what you're signing. He just tried to give me 2 completely unfilled out money orders. He's lucky I'm an honest person. I could have just as easily taken the money orders for myself (which I would NEVER do), kind of makes me want to teach him a lesson. That lesson, stop being so damn lazy and do things for yourself. I hate when people are completely helpless without someone showing them exactly how to do things. Annoying.

I haven't talked to Ben in a while. He worked swing shift, then I am assuming went and worked at the club last night too. Makes me sad that we won't be able to talk as much. I looked up flights to go back up to Reno and the prices went up. Hopefully that's just temporary.

My brother gets to town tomorrow. I don't see him until after I get off work at 6, but it will be exciting. We are doing our Christmas presents tomorrow night. Keeping the fingers crossed for Amazon Kindle. :-) Wednesday we have plans to go get Vietnamese pho with Chantal. That should be good times.

Ben's mom and sister sent me this singing Christmas card. Cats singing that is. I need to make a video of them listening to it. They are so weirded out, it's hilarious. They also gave me a $40 giftcard to Kohls. HELL YEAH! So far my Christmas has been quite exciting. 2 hoodies, some cute Wictoria's Secret underwears and a sleep shirt from Ben. Not to mention he got my hotel room upgraded for free and took me out to movies, arcade, lunch, dinner, ice cream. He is better at shopping for me than I am at shopping for myself. Kelly got me a Princess wine glass which a special cocktail recipe which I'm going to have to make. My boss got me in the office gift exchange, so I got a pretty purple sweater, some earring from Express, and 2 Bath & Body Works lotions. I'm probably forgetting some things, but that's it so far. Making out pretty well if I do say so myself.

I'm waiting for this next paycheck to catch my account back up, but the check after that I think I want to spoil myself. I need to get my hair cut, wouldn't mind having it colored either. MAYBE make a couple of larger payments on my credit cards to get the balances down to the halfway mark.

I think next days off that aren't New Years I am going to go to the college. THEN I need to start looking for a bankruptcy attorney for my medical bills. Get some advice as to what to do. I also need to sign up for benefits at my job. I think I qualify for them on January 31. That would be nice. I have to change from my injectable medication to a pill form here in the next week or so. Then I have to go have a test done to see what my adrenal function is doing. That test is going to pretty much determine whether or not I will ever be able to taper off the steroids entirely. I'm nervous. My labs from my abdominal ultrasound should be coming back soon too.

Today when I get home I need to clean like crazy. BOO! Hopefully I'll get to talk to Ben some time today. I'm missing him.

Another goal for the new year is going to be taking more pictures. I have very few photos of the last 5 or so years and it makes me sad. 2010 is going to be different (hopefully). Maybe I should look into buying a new digital camera since I can't freaking find mine anywhere. :-( I haven't even really used it, but it somehow got lost during my move here. That's what happens when you're in the hospital and other people have to move your shit for you. Well, I think that's all for now.

End of the year thoughts.

2009.. Wow! If I had known my 2009 would have gone the way it did, I may have made some different decisions. Time to sum it all up. The ex and I broke up in April 2008 and Ben and I started seeing eachother. I consider our anniversary to be 5/25/2008. SO, we've been together for about a year and a half. I WAS in Reno from August 2008 until August 2009, but I have since moved back to Las Vegas due to medical circumstances. As much as I appreciate having the option to come back and live at home with my parents, it's certainly not my 1st choice. I miss Ben. It's kind of funny that I knew that I am in love with him before I left Reno, but the intensity of how much I really do didn't hit me until I no longer got to see him every day.

I started the year off cleaning my old apartment. Ben was working graveyard, so he had to go to work AT midnight on New Year's last year. SO, I cleaned.. then went to bed. I was working at Wal-Mart. No more than 3 months into 2009 my ulcerative colitis decided to make isn't presence more known. I took time off work to get some of my problems squared away only to find out that I was going to just have surgery. Originally, the surgery was scheduled for April, but I didn't end up having it until June (long story that I've probably blogged about somewhere else). Then I spent the entire summer all the way until October 1st in and out of the hospital every few days. In between all of that I had my colectomy, moved back to Las Vegas, went back to work at my old leasing job, racked up some pretty serious medical bills, gotten even further behind in college. In other words, I've managed to turn my life into a complete clusterfuck. SO, 2010 is going to be a little different.

I don't necessarily know that moving back to Reno or even having Ben and I in the same town is even attainable in 2010, but OMG I hope so. Distance makes the heart grow fonder, but it also makes me lonely and sad as hell. I guess I'm going to have to put the having Ben part of my 2010 goals into the "Wishlist" category.

SCHOOL: I need to get back into college. I'm registered for a communications class, but I really need to go down to the college and get all my registrar crap figured out because I can't do anything I need to with the online registrations stuff. Plus, I need to go to a health programs orientation so that I can hopefully get on the right track to get into nursing school even though it probably won't be until I'm 30. HA!

DIET/EXERCISE: May sound like a big joke, but I decided that I'm not eating fast food for a year. Good thing it's grossing me out super bad lately! I signed up for a Jillian Michaels thing, so we'll see how it goes. If I'm not using it, I'll cancel it. Gotta work on getting to that fancy, shiney gym at my building! Hardest for me is probably going to be not drinking soda. I'm not going to lie.. I probably still will, just not as often. Water, gatorade, and juice are my friends. :)

WORK: Just gotta stay positive and try to make as much bonus as possible.

FINANCES: I really need to pay off my credit cards! I also need to go talk to an attorney about my medical bills. There is no effing way I'll ever be able to pay them off, but I think I'll feel about 1000x better once I talk to someone about it and create a plan.

HOME: I need to clean up more often. I also need to stop being as bitchy as I am. I'm working on it, but it's hard sometimes.

Anyway... The countdown begins... 5 days until the New Year and hopefully a better one at that.